Our little ones heart looks good (praise the Lord)! The baby looks good and we were able to breathe a huge sigh of relief! There is still fluid around the baby's heart but it's at a high normal level and the fetal heart specialist says it's nothing for them to be too concerned about. I will be going back in 4 weeks to have the baby's heart looked at again to make sure everything is still ok. Phew!
They did however find a new problem. My cervix is short. It's measuring 1.8cm and a normal cervix should be 2-4cm. If this was my first ultrasound they said they wouldn't have been too concerned but because I had one two weeks ago and it was measuring 3.6 cm they are quite worried about how much it's shortened in just two weeks! So now that means I'm at a high risk of delivering preterm. Not good! I go in a week to have it measured again and I'm praying and praying and praying it does not get any shorter!
All this uncertainty is driving me crazy! But I do have to say one thing...BC Woman's Hospital is absolutely amazing!!!!!! And they are so thorough! If it wasn't for them being so thorough I would have never known about my cervix being so short! And ALL the people we dealt with there were over the top AMAZING!!!!!! And they took their time and explained everything! And the best part...they tell you the results right then and there (I don't do well with having to wait)! The fetal heart specialist came right into the ultrasound room and told us what he was seeing as he was doing the ultrasound and we got to watch our little blessing on the screen the whole time!
I'll admit I'm worried (really really really worried). I wasn't at first just because Lincoln was 5 weeks early and healthy and Nate was 8 days late and healthy. But once they said I could have traumatized my cervix while trying for 3.5 hours to push out my 9lb 4oz Nathan I got worried! I still kinda think I'm in shock. We got the great news that the baby's heart looks good and I was on cloud 9 and then the doctor came back into the room and told us this! No mama wants to have to worry about delivering early especially since I'm only 22 weeks pregnant. I'll be heading back next week so that they can check my cervix again and I'm hoping and praying it doesn't get any shorter! I don't even think I know WHAT to think. In fact I'm kinda shocked. I'm a worrier, I'm a panicker and in that moment I think I kinda went numb. I wanted to celebrate the good news and I really don't think I wanted to hear the bad news. Even while we were waiting to speak to the doctor's about this I stayed calm (and I'm not a "stay calm" type of person). Maybe I just know this is completely out of my hands. I know I'm not in control. And after all we went through these last two weeks I think my faith is strengthened and that's a good thing. I just don't want to worry any more. And I most importantly just want a happy and healthy baby! And I know sometimes things don't work out like we planned them too. Sometimes as woman we end up needing drugs during delivery and that wasn't part of our birth plan or sometimes we have c-sections. But at the end of the day what's most important when having a baby is...health! Seriously! These last two weeks have put things into perspective for me! I don't care how much pain I need to go through or if I have another c-section. I don't care if I have to lay in bed for weeks and weeks and weeks (all though that would suck). All that matters is that my baby comes out healthy. Period. Boy, Girl I don't care I just want a healthy baby and a healthy pregnancy. I don't want to take anything for granted. So please other mama's out there...let's remember at the end of the day a healthy baby is what is most important!!!!!
Seeing this little one made my day.
As soon as this beautiful and perfect little profile popped up on the screen I started to cry! I couldn't help it! Is their a greater blessing than the gift of life? I know I'm biased but this little one is perfect. And I kinda had to smile every time the doctor's and technician said how beautiful and pretty our baby was. I know they say that to every one but in that moment I truly believed that they actually thought my baby was the most beautiful baby they'd ever seen! This baby has the most perfect little feet and hands and kidney and heart. And hearing the squishing of the little heart beat put me at ease!
I still do ask/beg for prayers. I know it's a weird prayer request to ask people to pray for my cervix:-) but I really really really don't want to delivery this baby early! And again I really appreciated all the sweet comments and prayers! Thank you all so much! xoxo
we will pray for your cervix!! haha
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